What is God doing?

So yeah! here I am 17 hours from the home I’ve always known in pursuit of more of God and for the glory of God to be revealed in and through me.  If anyone would have told me 6 months ago that I’d be here, I’d say No Way but here I am.  I thought that coming here would somehow awaken something in me that wasn’t there before and that everyday would be full of God’s glory. But no!!  Instead, God is working behind my back.

Last weekend was a real turning point in not only this internship, but in my marriage and inside all of us interns. We all felt it even though we couldn’t  necessarily describe exactly what it was. Craig said something that really struck me.  He said how sometimes you’re in a place where you don’t really feel like God is doing anything.  You don’t feel extremely anointed, or full of purpose, but it’s precisely during this time that you’re growing in leaps and bounds because God is working behing your back. You wake up one day and realize that you are not the same person that you were yesterday.

That’s what happened to me beginning last weekend till today.  My marriage has changed for the better all of a sudden, I feel like I can really minister to people because I do have something to give. All of a sudden all of us living in the house are a family.  One night God moved and here we are on the other side wondering what the heck just happened.

 God is not doing what I thought He would do (of course…) instead He is working behind the scenes and pushing me to mature and step on my own two feet. It’s time for me to really grow up.  It’s like a bird in a nest that’s ready to fly.  it stands right at the edge of the nest and before long, he’s flying!! Just like that. All the while the mother is the one who pushes him out of the nest.  She knows that he will never learn to fly until he is forced to.

No matter how it looks in the natural, this time is full of glory because God is here.  I trust now that He is doing something even when I don’t feel it.  He is giving me what I need right now….not necessarily what I think I want or should have.  Yay God!!

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