Deep calls unto deep
I sat in the car this morning thinking about what my passion is and what’s most important to me. The Holy Spirit started convicting me about my time with Him and how I’ve gotten off track. I’ve been so worried about finances even though God’s always been on time. We’ve never been late on a bill. God’s been faithful to bring in money, but today I noticed that I haven’t spent time with God like I usually do. I remember when I was so in love with God that I’d go to be with Him just because He is God, but now I’ve gone to Him a lot for finances. I was convicted today about it and it broke my heart. He took me to a scripture in Matthew about the birds and the flowers.
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Jesus said ” if God cares so much for wildflowers that are here today and thrown in the fire tomorrow, He will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith?” Then He said If we seek the Kingdom first above all else and live righteously, God will give us everything we need.
I know this scripture just like every Christian, but God gave me a whole new revelation about it especially with what we’re going through right now.
I’ve also been thinking a lot about my passion.
I came to this school thinking it would be as structured as college, but it’s not. I didn’t know how good that would be for me. I thought I would need Craig and Lori to tell me what to do and where to go just like other Bible schools, but this is not just another Bible school. It’s an internship created to awaken me in the supernatural. I never knew that what I needed was to find what passion is and go after it. God’s been showing me a lot. I loooovvveee performing in musicals, plays etc. I love acting, dancing, singing. I’ve always loved it. There’s something about it. God put such a love in my heart for it. I never knew that God could actually use something like that in my life to touch people’s lives, but i feel He’s wanting me to pursue that. I’ve had a burning desire to take ballet lessons…Another passion I have is to be everything God wants me to be in my life, in my marriage, in my ministry etc… I’m praying that God reveals to me what exactly He wants me to do with these…how do I put im plement them in my life in practical ways??
That’s what’s been going on with me for the past few weeks…
Lucrece
Filed under Lucrece | Comments (2)signs and wonders
over my life time i have seen some really cool things and sense my life in a way has only just begun i am looking forward to bigger things. yet there is a time in every-ones life where we are looking for a sign from God something to tell us that we are on the right path. then suddenly the sign shows up we all wonder was that God? and yet we pray all the time “reveal your self God” it is the nature of man to want to see God. it is something that is part of our heart is to see him and his power. even unbelievers will tell you “show it to me” they challenge it out of the hope that it may actually work and that God might show up. 
i am 18 teen and my heart brakes every time i see a kid sitting in church and i can see that they are totally out of what is being said and done and what hurts is i cant blame them. my life i have seen a good truthful gospel being preached yet i see that a revelation of the truth with out a application of that truth does nothing. in Hosea 4:6 it says “My people perish for lack of knowledge. because you have rejected knowledge” the reason why we perish is not because we did not know, the reason why we perish is because we know yet we reject it. i worked with guy who was an atheist yet his mom worked at a church he went to the youth group (to play pool) he new that there was a God and as we talked it was clear that God had really nothing to offer him in his mind. he told me one day “if i had to choose id be a Christian” he knew what he needed yet didnt want to leave a life of “freedom” to live a life of “rules”. we would talk and talk about God and what life was about. he did drugs had “relationships” and had enough of religion he was my age and truly wanted a destiny yet he was so wounded by the church that he couldnt see a loving Jesus. during my time there i trained a guy who was a bit older than me and had one of the most messed up views on everything spiritual so he would pump me full of questions about God and healing and stuff and he was genuine in the things he would ask me, there were several times we would be in the middle of stocking shelves all the while having a discussion about God and several times i had a well meaning christian would interject a comment about Jesus being the Lord of Lords and the King of Kings and this guy would just look at them like what does that mean? i truly believe that people dont care what you know until you know that you care. youth dont care what you know until you get on there level and look at them straight in the eyes and begin to see what they are dealing with. i had met some kids this last week at church and decided to go hang out at youth group with them a lot of these kids have crazy stories even though i dont know all of there stories you can tell some have been through junk and that is putting it nicely and so i go and hang out and talk to some of them before it starts. i had decided i would keep quiet and not cause to much trouble. they talked about the prophetic and hearing God and as i listened i could relate to how a lot of these kids were feeling they had gotten excited about God and all they wanted to do is get to know God yet they were dealing with the confusion of voices and feelings and “how do i” and “what dont i”. has i was just listening to what was being spoken my head began to get very hot. witch is usually it is God telling me he is about to show up and show off. the youth pastor looked at me and said “what is your story?” i started telling everyone about the things ive been apart of. healing rooms, firestorm, mentorships, and healing and prophetic schools. i started talking about miracles and seeing legs and arms grow and as i began telling testimonies of healing. the whole time my head getting hotter and hotter. then i felt like i just needed to do something supernatural so i said “hay is there anyone hear with back pain right now” sure enough one girl had some back pain and so i said to youth pastor is it alright if i pray for her and he said yes so i said “stand up and stick out your arms” she stood and stuck out her arms and sure enough one was shorter than the other one by a half an inch i said “watch this it is going to grow out” i began to tell the arm to grow and with out even touching her they began to grow she got very hot and started to shake. they grew out until they were even and i turned around and said “it is that simple” the other kids started asking all these questions and some wanted prayer for healing this one kid who had a ball hit one of his fingers while playing baseball got completely healed as i was praying for him his hands got covered in gold dust and oil. another kid who had flat feet had instant improvement. the same girl who had her arms grown out asked me to pray for her tail bone. so i told her to reach down until it hurts and she could only go about as far as her knees. so i grew out her legs and then told her to reach down and touch her toes, so she reached down and touched her toes the power of God was so real in that place it was so good. after stuff settled down this guy said to me “when you started talking about growing out legs and stuff i thought you were full of crap, but now i apologize”. youth are looking for a real gospel and i intend to give it to them. i pray that this will not make you applaud, or feel warm and fuzzy, i pray that this will embolden you. i pray it will make you jealous. i pray that it will make you hungry. jes
DREAMING DREAMS
Have you ever wanted dreams from God? Here is a simple list of things to do to help get dreams
1)Always have a notebook or your laptop near your bed so you are stepping out in faith believing that you’ll get one, and that you’re ready to right down what you get
2)Write down any dreams you get. You may not think they’re dreams from God, but over time you may realize they are.
3)Always eat right before bed. It’s a good excuse to eat…
4)Get dream impartation from Craig Kinsley
Since I’ve been here dreams have been coming up more and more. Before I came to Moravian Falls, I did get many dreams, but never thought they had much meaning. Since I’ve been taught much more on interpretation of dreams and how God speaks to you through them, I’ve been expecting dreams more.
Many dreams have been about my future (confirming things that have been prophesied over me), given me warnings of things happening in the spirit that could affect me, and others about the past. The ones that has been difficult is what to do with dreams that have other people involved. Do I tell them, pray for them and just watch it play out….? This is when I really look to wisdom for help.
What I’m going through now is not “Lord give me dreams” but “Lord, why so many dreams”….
I guess it’s a good place to be. All I can say is be faithful with the little (any dreams you get), and God will be faithful and give you more…
If you are one of those people who want more dreams, recieve this prayer as you read it…
God, for the people who are reading this and desire to hear You speak through dreams in their lives, I impart to them now what you have placed in me Father. Give them dreams for Your glory, and to advance what you want to do hear on earth as it is in heaven, in their lives and in others.
I bless you in Jesus name, to believe for more and never lose faith!!!! God is with you and will give you the desires of your heart. So go to bed tonight and ask God for dreams, and expect something.
One last bit of advice… No matter what time you wake up in the night with a dream, write it down then, not later. If you go back to sleep you may forget some of it, or all of it… and be mad at yourself later. It happened to me last week, but praise God he gave me the dream 3 days later again.
Talk to you next week, Corey
PS-Pray for Kristen’s back, it’s outta place and chiropractic treatments cost a lot more here in the USA.
Filed under Corey | Comments (6)Truth and Guns
I feel kind of lost right now and it’s really hard to see past what’s right in front of my face. Just this past weekend I went to Asheville to see my craziness college friends. Istayed up way too late and ate a little too much junk food, but overall I had a great time. While my time there was fun-filled, seeing them remided me of what it would be like to be back in “real” life and it wasn’t a pleasant feeling. All I kept thinking was “this used to be my life and now I no longer fit into it.” When I go home I’m not going to be surrounded by great christian people who want to lift me up and soar with God on wings of eagles. It’s just not going to happen. I feel like I clash with the world and the funny thing is that the world doesn’t seem to notice. Every one of my friends recognized me as the same old Alyssa and honestly it was kind of devastating for me. I want to be different, but it just feels like I didn’t make the cut.
Craig told me that even if I messed up and tried to run away from God, that He would still find me and bring me into my destiny. It kind of amazes me that God wants to do that. He obviously put something in me that He absolutly needs to share with the world. I want to be what God wants me to be, but is that enough? The desire that I have feels great, but how far does it truely extend? When I go back home will I fall back into the same old patterns? This is a daunting question that oftentimes makes me feel sick to my stomach. I have to push it out of my mind.
I know that this is some huge gooby ball of condemnation and I can feel it sticking to me, but I’m having a hard time pulling myself out of this one. How do I separate myself from myself. There is a whole part of me that has bought into the lies so much that it’s like I’m lying to myself. I’m digging my own grave, so to speak. I want out of this mess! I know what’s truth and what’s lies, but they seem to fade in and out. One week all I will see is truth and the next I will focus on the lies. I want to be rid of the lies! I want to be free to be strong without a thought about my weakness and I want to know who I am in God without looking at all my sin. Jesus paid a price so that I could live in freedom and all I can do is feel condemnation because I’m not doing that.
I need another download of truth God…. and some lie-zapping guns….
Filed under Alyssa | Comments (5)Corey’s Top Ten + 1 Experiences of AWAKE & THE USA thus far…
Corey’s Top Ten + 1 Experiences of AWAKE & THE USA thus far…
+1) Being able to wear summer clothing and it’s only first week of March
10) Meeting all the other interns and making friends with two of them (guess who? Ha,ha… you’re all my friends…)
9) Customs Officer – Almost didn’t let us into the country and told me I couldn’t work. That’s my kind of school… sorry Craig no homework for me…
Experiencing what a rat infestation is all about. Not just the house, the vehicle too.
7) Having to continually jump through hoops b/c I’m Canadian!! Getting a vehicle, getting cell phones to work (well not yet)
6) Getting into worship with the others and loving the classes
5) Question and Answer time with Domonic… “THE DOM SHOW”… He will always have a question for Craig… I think he should have his own talk show…
4) Prophesying for people and actually being right! PRAISE GOD!!!! Getting prophesied over is just as good… I can’t believe how business is coming to the surface.
3) Seeing my kids grow so quickly and loving my family
2) Consistently having dreams from God (like every 3 or 4 nights)
1) Opening a bank account and the banker asking me if Canada was in the US… after seeing my passport.
God has surprised me in many ways since coming here. From getting healing from hurts I never knew were there (and still realizing some) to being able to minister to strangers and build relationships with people so easily. I really enjoy this area, the people, and the school.
Dreams and business has been by far the most unexpected for me. The first month I kept getting guest speakers and students speaking business over me, and that I’m a multi-gifted person, like a man of many trades. I’ve always served someone else in my life and have come under someone else’s vision and did my best to support them. Now, I’m actually dreaming more for myself, and the vision God wants to fulfill through me. I find I’m helping people all around me which I love, and enjoy so much. Especially when I see the other students grow from what I can offer to them.
Dreams are one of the craziest things I’ve been experiencing. It’s difficult at times to know whether I should share them with the people in them, or if the people represent something that pertains to me. I look forward to what dream is tonight. Hopefully I will not get lazy and get out of bed and type it out. Perhaps it will even have you in it tonight!!
That’s all for now… Don’t forget to send that money God told you too as you read this… yah you know the amount… no the other one… with the extra zero to the left of the decimal point… ha, ha.
I’M LOVING MY LIFE!!!!! I’M LOVING MY WIFE!!!!!! & I’M LOVING MY GOD!! 
