Deep calls unto deep

I sat in the car this morning thinking about what my passion is and what’s most important to me.  The Holy Spirit started convicting me about my time with Him and how I’ve gotten off track. I’ve been so worried about finances even though God’s always been on time. We’ve never been late on a bill. God’s been faithful to bring in money, but today I noticed that I haven’t spent time with God like I usually do.  I remember when I was so in love with God that I’d go to be with Him just because He is God, but now I’ve gone to Him a lot for finances.  I was convicted today about it and it broke my heart.  He took me to a scripture in Matthew about the birds and the flowers.
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Jesus said ” if God cares so much for wildflowers that are here today and thrown in the fire tomorrow, He will certainly care for you.  Why do you have so little faith?”  Then He said If we seek the Kingdom first above all else and live righteously, God will give us everything we need. 

I know this scripture just like every Christian, but God gave me a whole new revelation about it especially with what we’re going through right now. 

 I’ve also been thinking a lot about my passion. 

I came to this school thinking it would be as structured as college, but it’s not.  I didn’t know how good that would be for me.  I thought I would need Craig and Lori to tell me what to do and where to go just like other Bible schools, but this is not just another Bible school.  It’s an internship created to awaken me in the supernatural.  I never knew that what I needed was to find what passion is and go after it.  God’s been showing me a lot.  I loooovvveee performing in musicals, plays etc. I love acting, dancing, singing.  I’ve always loved it. There’s something about it. God put such a love in my heart for it.  I never knew that God could actually use something like that in my life to touch people’s lives, but i feel He’s wanting me to pursue that.  I’ve had a burning desire to take ballet lessons…Another passion I have is to be everything God wants me to be in my life, in my marriage, in my ministry etc… I’m praying that God reveals to me what exactly He wants me to do with these…how do I put im plement them in my life in practical ways??

That’s what’s been going on with me for the past few weeks…

 Lucrece

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