I am who I am

Here I am, in a hotel room, in Florida.  The kids are sleeping and I am watching The Great Florida Healing Revival on the internet (check it out at www.freshfire.ca).  This has been an amazing week.  I actually flew down with the rest of the interns and Corey stayed back with the kids.  We figured it was going to be the best thing for the kids.  Well… revival started breaking out.  And Corey made the 10 hour drive down with the kids.

In the days before Corey arrived I realized so much about myself.  I realized I have lived in Corey’s shadow and that was my fault.  It is not that Corey is overbearing, at all (for those who know him you know that’s true), in reality I purposely let myself hide behind him.  I didn’t feel I could measure up to what I was supposed to be.  Not having Corey with me I realized that I am so much stronger than I ever thought I was.  I can lead, and serve, and minister like I never knew.  Back when we were pastoring someone once said that it seemed like the ministry was such a weight on me.  I wanted to say, no it is what others want me to be that is a weight.  What I like is that I can just be me and enjoy ministry and my family.  That is the way it is supposed to be.  Each of us being who we are and doing our part to bring God’s kingdom on earth.  Life is so much more fun this way.  Even as I type that I have such smile on my face.  It is time to get rid of the expectations of what we believe we are supposed to be and just be who we are.  This has been such a blessing.  I am so grateful to God for letting me be a part of this!!!!!!!

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