where am i ?!?!?
So hear i am in this “season” is that what it is called? i find my self constantly trying to define, explain and justify my “season” when i feel like i cant even achieve an understanding of the mystery God is revealing to me. How can i understand the thing that i see? It looks like a trail some days, a joyful encounter the next, other days it is fight, some times its dream beautiful and peaceful, and all the while a never ending adventure. As banning says, “the difference between those who do something for God and those who don’t is that the people that do something actually do something” so here i am doing something for God. And things are happening yet never like i think. (surprise) 
The other day i had the opportunity to pray for this lady i had met. she had pain in her back and a muscle problem that made her constantly tense she was on pain medication but it was not working, and on top of all that…..well she just really needed to feel Gods love. so she started to tell me about her back pain and the life threatening operation that she needed but couldn’t afford. so i felt that it was a good opportunity and i went for it. I said to her well i can fix that for you. she said, well you do massages that’s great. i said, no it is all through God, and i told her to stick her arms out and she did, one was about a half an inch shorter. showed it to her and she said, well i’ll be darned, i told her that it would grow out, it began to grow slowly but surely. after it had finished growing i should it to her and she thought i had done an trick or something. The power of God was all over her she almost fell over. i said well let me do your legs, and she said alright but first let me have a cigarette, so she had her cigarette and i just talk to her about her life (people don’t care what you know until they know that you care) after that i sat her down measured her legs and sure enough one leg about a half an inch shorter than the other. So i grow it out and this time the power of God is so strong i half to hold on to her to keep her from falling, she starts lipping around because she is not used to walking this way. I also knew that she had bad joints in her hands so i said to her, you want me to do your hands to? she said, sure go for it. i got a hold of her hands in mine and i didn’t even pray i simply said God fix what needs to be fixed. And i began to to feel her joints popping it was wild!! i said can you feel that? She said, oh yah! and after that she was completely pain free.