Home sweet home
Tyler and I are home for a friend’s wedding and it’s been so good to be able to see everyone. At our small group last Friday, my friend Sunny (the leader of the small group) asked us to impart the fire into them. They wanted whatever we had! So tyler and I prayed over everyone, imparted into them and prophesied over them too. It was amazing. I definitely felt the difference between being in the anointing and stepping out of it. I’ve been on fire and i’ve been telling everyone about the healings and what God’s doing in FL. I went to a nail salon with Sunny yesterday and we began to tell this lady about the miracles and she couldn’t believe that the dead were being raised!! It was really funny to watch her reaction…so anyway Sunny told her all about it and it turns out that she has satellite so she can get GodTV!!! She said she’d check it out!!!
Omaha is hungry for God. I was interceding for Omaha the other day and I really feel like God is raising up a mighty army here. I’m really excited for it!!! I wish we could impart into people at Church tomorrow!! That would be amazing, but one step at a time, God is slowly taking over our church. I’m really excited to see what’s gonna happen!
Lucrece
Filed under Lucrece | Comments (17)It’s a new season, it’s a new day :)
So everything feels like it’s changed ever since I’ve been to the revival. The weirdest thing is that being in the revival didn’t really do much for me. God’s presence was amazing, don’t get me wrong, I mean at times I felt the actual weight of the presence of God on my shoulders…so much so that it hurt. Incredible things are happening in FL. What I mean by my earlier statement is that I found myself crying out for more than just seeing miracles. I’ve wanted to see miracles for a long time now. I didn’t want to just be content with praying for people, I wanted to see the stuff!!! And here I end up in FL and people got out of wheelchairs, took off their oxygen tanks, lumps disappeared, scars disappeared, 9 people so far have been raised from the dead! So God is moving!!! and it’s all because of the people’s hunger and because of his grace.
So anyway, here I was at revival you know? This is the 3rd wave of God’s mighty move and all this and I have no desire to do anything but to be at the feet of Jesus! Man, it was really hard being in such an amazing environment and yet at the same time feeling really not much…
But after we got back, I feel like i’ve been falling in love with Jesus all over again. I mean i’ve been longing for God like I’ve never longed for him before and it’s been amazing! I’m excited for this next season!!!
Lucrece
Filed under Lucrece | Comments (13)Being changed
So the biggest lesson I’m learning right now is changing instead of expecting the surroundings around me to change. I’ve had a lot of struggles with living in a community house because there’s no personal space unless you’re in your room. I have to admit that I’m still getting used to having people constantly around, but God is really teaching me that I have to learn to change instead of waiting for everyone else around me to. I’m the only one in the house who actually cares about cleaning so that’s been a real struggle, but I’m slowly letting go of expectations of what everyone else should and should not do. I figure that as long as I do my part, everything will be ok. Everyone else doesn’t need to like cleaning like I do, and I shouldn’t expect them to.
God’s been doing a lot of things in me. Corey told me the other day that he felt God was taking me to new levels of gentleness. Of course he has no idea how much that really means to me. Being gentle is the hardest thing for me to be just because i didn’t grow up in it and I wasn’t taught it. But God has been doing some serious work in my heart. The biggest thing He’s teaching me is to let go. It’s that simple. He just wants me to let go and breathe. Just let go… It seems so simple, but it’s hard for me. I really feel like “You have turned my heart of stone into a heart of flesh” is the best way I can describe what God is doing in my heart right now.
I feel like Tyler and I have just stepped over a line on the road. It’s like when you cross a border and you don’t particularly feel like you crossed because you only drove over a line on the road, but you really did. That’s how it feels. I feel like God is really stirring up both our hearts for more of Him. I cry just thinking about how much I want the Holy Spirit. I want to know Him, what he likes, what he hates, his deepest thoughts etc. I just have this really deep desire to know Him. I don’t want to just pass by Him anymore. I want to aknowledge him in everything I do and everywhere I go. I want his feelings to be more important to me that my life. I want to be his best friend. I just want to know him so much more than I do now.
Anyway, that’s where I am. God is doing so much. It’s been amazing. Even at the conference the past 2 weeks, I didn’t know how much I had to give until I started ministering to people. God’s presence was so strong one night that I felt a heavy weight on my shoulders that was pushing me further into my chair. It was so incredible! I didn’t want it to lift but it was amazing that I could get out of it and come right back into if I wanted to. One night after everyone was gone, I could have sworn that there was smoke in the room. It looked really hazy, but I thought it was just my eyes. Well, the next day, I noticed that the haze was gone…I really think it was God’s presence. I want revival to happen all over the world, not just Florida, not just the USA, but the world!
Lucrece
Deep calls unto deep
I sat in the car this morning thinking about what my passion is and what’s most important to me. The Holy Spirit started convicting me about my time with Him and how I’ve gotten off track. I’ve been so worried about finances even though God’s always been on time. We’ve never been late on a bill. God’s been faithful to bring in money, but today I noticed that I haven’t spent time with God like I usually do. I remember when I was so in love with God that I’d go to be with Him just because He is God, but now I’ve gone to Him a lot for finances. I was convicted today about it and it broke my heart. He took me to a scripture in Matthew about the birds and the flowers.
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Jesus said ” if God cares so much for wildflowers that are here today and thrown in the fire tomorrow, He will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith?” Then He said If we seek the Kingdom first above all else and live righteously, God will give us everything we need.
I know this scripture just like every Christian, but God gave me a whole new revelation about it especially with what we’re going through right now.
I’ve also been thinking a lot about my passion.
I came to this school thinking it would be as structured as college, but it’s not. I didn’t know how good that would be for me. I thought I would need Craig and Lori to tell me what to do and where to go just like other Bible schools, but this is not just another Bible school. It’s an internship created to awaken me in the supernatural. I never knew that what I needed was to find what passion is and go after it. God’s been showing me a lot. I loooovvveee performing in musicals, plays etc. I love acting, dancing, singing. I’ve always loved it. There’s something about it. God put such a love in my heart for it. I never knew that God could actually use something like that in my life to touch people’s lives, but i feel He’s wanting me to pursue that. I’ve had a burning desire to take ballet lessons…Another passion I have is to be everything God wants me to be in my life, in my marriage, in my ministry etc… I’m praying that God reveals to me what exactly He wants me to do with these…how do I put im plement them in my life in practical ways??
That’s what’s been going on with me for the past few weeks…
Lucrece
Filed under Lucrece | Comments (16)Being true
It’s so easy for me to live up to others’ expectations of me. Growing up, my mom instilled such a fear in me to make any mistakes of any kind that I grew up a lot faster than most. I’m the “mature one” or the “really polite one” or “the proper one.” I’m the one who constantly tries to do everything perfectly, to respond to everyone in the right manner, to present things the right way, to be the great and perfect everything for everyone. But i’m not perfect…I try to be, but I’m not. And every time I do something wrong and hurt someone, I feel like the worst person in the world because my mom’s expectations of me keep swirling in my head… they say “You’ve got to be somebody. You’ve got to show your mom that you are not who she thinks you are. You’ve got to show her that you are mature, that you really have a heart, that you are worth it, that you can make it, that you are honestly trying…” How can these thoughts still chase me when she is so far away? “You’ve got to be the perfect wife, the perfect daughter, sister, friend…”
I’m realizing how destructive these thoughts are…they are going against everything God tells me I am. With God, I don’t have to be perfect. He already loves me. It was the hardest thing for me to grasp because I felt like I had to be perfect for my mom to really love me the way I am, but God came in and He told me that I am perfect just the way I am and it took a while to register in my heart. I guess I’m going through one of those times when I just feel not good enough you know? I’m still new at this whole “wife” thing and I really feel like I’m not passing any of the marriage tests right now. But I know what God’s Word says. I know He’s here and this too shall pass…
God is definitely showing me things that need to go and things I can’t stand about myself. I know it’s His fire and He’s refining me and burning away the dross. I just wish it wasn’t so hard.
