if i just had more time to smell the flowers
do you ever want to sleep away a day? do you ever wish you could stop time? wouldnt it be great if you could get everything done on time that you planned and still had energy? i feel like the more i rest and relax the more i realize how much it is so vital. sense being in moravian falls i feel like i am suspended in time, that as i am here the world is still spinning every where else. it feels like im in the “now what” stage. but the funny thing is i know “what” it just that it isnt time yet.
the truth is we all say “if i just had more time” but the real truth is not what is important but what is essential to you. in a world of fast pace and fast food it is so easy to sacrifice our selves for the needs of those around us but where is the balance where is the understanding of knowing when to go in to the wilderness for a while and when do you minister to the multitude? i find myself learning what is the priority what is essential to the plan and destiny God has given me.
it is said that time is our most precious commodity its worth can only be measured by what we do with the time we have. we never stop always trying to use our time to the best of our ability, striving every second of every day to reach some goal that we have set for our selves never satisfied when we reach it.
i have heard it said that you should “take the time to smell the flowers” i have started to do that every time i see a flower take the time to smell it enjoy its color and unique shape and design, think about it and wonder how God could make such a beautiful thing.
i have found that if i really want to find God i have to take time to find the beauty in everything.
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Reflections of the Gospel: “becky”
the following blog was written some while ago…the reason im posting it is because I believe I have discovered the person that it refers to in the conclusion…enjoy…
Lately Ive been presented with the choice of sleepng in or going to church/meeting with God and in every case opting with the latter has yet to leave me felling disapointed. The same oppourtunity presented itself today as my insurmountable fatigue beseached me to to sleep a lil more and neglect my ministry oppourtunity. Recalling my prior expierence with this situation as well as my desire to honor my verbal commitment to the youth pastor, it really wasnt a decision to make. I always enjoy going to places (the drive) but espically tose trips that allow me to use the OK-74 highway. Its just so beautiful! With the warm setting sun and lush green meadows, random 4 way stops with gas stations where the other two ways have to stop but you are allowed to keep going. the feeling of 75mph on such a road with the window down and the wind surging passivelyat your face, sweeping over the broad, yet fitting lenses of my aviator sunglasses. great stuff. Its also always fun because there are little towns that you drive through marked by the quickly decreasing speed limit. This particular time the first town I would “pass through” would be the town where i would be ministering at. Crescent. When I was traveling in Derail (the praise and worship band i used to be in), we played there at a commuity center and it seems as if everyone remembered me from that time. One thing I didnt realize was how big skateboarding was there! So when I brought my longboard out it was a hit, due to its length and smooth ride. I feel like it helped me break the ice in a way. Most kids didn’t know that i was going to be the speaker, I was just a dude with a long skateboard. I liked that alot. One of the things I remember from my last visit was that they’re wernt any black people at all, so it was great to see 2 at the event. Making my way over to talk to them I felt myself at odds pondering how i owuld be welcomed by them, because im not a typical…well I dont dress/look like alot of black people, and this puts me at odds with them, I feel. As if they are expressing contempt for me breaking some unwritten code of conduct/dress by my expression of my creativity/ personality. Anyway upon meeting them I quickly found a commonality in the anticipation for the new season as shelby and adriene were sr. running and full backs for the highschool. That round of ammo proved somewhat effective, but ran out very soon so i made my timely exit and moved on. I knew that God would do the work (whatever it was) later. I had fun meeitng the students and Jenifer, the girl next girl who was feeding the goats, and listening to Walking Seven, the opening band. They looked like they were nearing the the end of their highschool journey and played really well. My set was shorter as time had dictated but the 5 songs I did with emotion that was mustered from the people that surounded the little trailor stage. this only intensified as adriene and shelby moved from afar to join the party people by the stage. It was as if i was rapping just for them. As I delivered each rhyme, we met eyes and each time they were nodding to signify that they could make out what i was saying and they were down with it. So with all the engergy it had begun with, the set ended, and i transitioned to the message. You dont have to have notes whn God takes you through a dark place oin your life and teaches you along the way. A young man, Trey I believe, whom i had talked with and gotten to know before the show (we instantly bonded because we were both black gospel rappers, i was just slightly older!!!) the whole time went up for prayer. I thought that this and meeting adriene and shelby and having those “odds” broken down with Gods truth over tracks was blessing enough, but then i met sara and her sister becky and her daughter torra love. Becky, torras mom, was old school penticostal or threw that vibe due to her long (ankle length) skirt and long hair, sans makeup/jewlery. for all the haters i say there something in that modest appearence. I thik its the unwavering adhearence to that such appearence. in talking with Becky I realized she was the person I wanted to marry. She as well as her sister and daughter reminded me of what its like to wait for Gods best. A woman of faith, modesty, purity, and an intimacy with God that focuses on knowing His heart. that knowledge expresses itself in everything she does and all that she is, making her truly beautiful. This beauty is exceptional and so extremely rare that ill know it when i see it, and there wont be any mistaking it. Ive often seen alot of these qualities in girls ive persued, thinking they were perfect for me, but all this while I was so sure and Christ was saying simply “they may be perfect, but not for you..” and “you could make it work, but ive got better” Meeting becky I realized this was true and that such a woman makes ripples of impact around those close to her like becky had done iwth her younger sister and two daughters. We stayed for over an hour talking about the things of God. She was astounded to see so many Godly concepts I had grasped at “such a young age,” and i was amazed at how her devotion to God had such an impact on me. God confirms all kinds of things and tells us what we need to hear. When it happens its almost never the same situation and likewise we are almost never the same, but it always is a blessing.
Filed under Gospel | Comment (0)The Boat Moves :)
how can you have so much vision but still feel like there is no direction? i feel like i’m moving forward and being propelled out into my destiny, fast. the only problem is that i don’t feel like i’ve caught up. i don’t feel like i’m at the spiritual level that i need to be at to start embarking on this amazing journey called destiny. am i ready?
God never gives us anything that we can’t handle. i have to trust Him and i know that i am(or i wouldn’t be staying here) , but five million thoughts go through my head each and every day. i feel like i’m banging my head against a brick wall over and over again hoping that i break through each time that i try. i just don’t know why i feel this way. i feel like i’m waiting for something to happen. right now it’s me and Jesus out at sea. if it was bible times i’d be sitting next to peter.
everything seems like it’s a big mess and the waves are crashing all around the boat, but i know that Jesus can clam the waves. it’s so good to actually know God’s character because it changes your perspective on life. God is directing every step that i take and if i’m living outside of His perfect will He will let me know. how can anything be bad? it can’t. because my Jesus loves me.
Home sweet home
Tyler and I are home for a friend’s wedding and it’s been so good to be able to see everyone. At our small group last Friday, my friend Sunny (the leader of the small group) asked us to impart the fire into them. They wanted whatever we had! So tyler and I prayed over everyone, imparted into them and prophesied over them too. It was amazing. I definitely felt the difference between being in the anointing and stepping out of it. I’ve been on fire and i’ve been telling everyone about the healings and what God’s doing in FL. I went to a nail salon with Sunny yesterday and we began to tell this lady about the miracles and she couldn’t believe that the dead were being raised!! It was really funny to watch her reaction…so anyway Sunny told her all about it and it turns out that she has satellite so she can get GodTV!!! She said she’d check it out!!!
Omaha is hungry for God. I was interceding for Omaha the other day and I really feel like God is raising up a mighty army here. I’m really excited for it!!! I wish we could impart into people at Church tomorrow!! That would be amazing, but one step at a time, God is slowly taking over our church. I’m really excited to see what’s gonna happen!
Lucrece
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So everything feels like it’s changed ever since I’ve been to the revival. The weirdest thing is that being in the revival didn’t really do much for me. God’s presence was amazing, don’t get me wrong, I mean at times I felt the actual weight of the presence of God on my shoulders…so much so that it hurt. Incredible things are happening in FL. What I mean by my earlier statement is that I found myself crying out for more than just seeing miracles. I’ve wanted to see miracles for a long time now. I didn’t want to just be content with praying for people, I wanted to see the stuff!!! And here I end up in FL and people got out of wheelchairs, took off their oxygen tanks, lumps disappeared, scars disappeared, 9 people so far have been raised from the dead! So God is moving!!! and it’s all because of the people’s hunger and because of his grace.
So anyway, here I was at revival you know? This is the 3rd wave of God’s mighty move and all this and I have no desire to do anything but to be at the feet of Jesus! Man, it was really hard being in such an amazing environment and yet at the same time feeling really not much…
But after we got back, I feel like i’ve been falling in love with Jesus all over again. I mean i’ve been longing for God like I’ve never longed for him before and it’s been amazing! I’m excited for this next season!!!
Lucrece
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